is it this way with everyone?
there seems to be a hundred and one sayings - but right now "it never rains til it pours" seems appropriate.
for a lot of last year, i felt like i was in go slow mode. there was a bit to do - kickboxing, yoga, work and friends. but i didnt feel like my life was full - like i really had a good full life.
it didnt really bug me too much. i was still happy. i just seemed to have a bit more free time than some of my friends. now i understand that most of that was my making too.
after i went to fiji in october, things really changed a lot.
i started travelling to melbourne for work and i got into diving. around christmas time, i was spending most of my weekends out of town and then after new year, i had a bit of a disagreement with my trainer and we broke up.
i thought that this would mean that i had a bit more time to myself - not as many sessions at the gym each week, that sort of thing. but as it turns out, i was wrong.
this year i cant seem to find a minute to myself!
i guess i wanted it to be this way - i wanted to be busy and not sitting around the house wondering what to do next. and now i have that - i'm thinking of another saying "the grass is always greener on the other side"
when i worked for vodafone, there was quite a lot of corporate speak about trying to educate people about a work-life balance. at that time, i thought it was bollocks and was corporate code for working us too hard and then trying to make sure we took responsibility for the repercussions in our own lives. now i am not so sure that it was all bollocks.
i definitely think that i need to take responsibility for my calendar. and for saying no to some of the trips that work might want me to do. and to my friends who invite me out. after all - its ok to say no sometimes.
the crux of it is - i did get a cold after fiji. and possibly tonsilitis.
and its my own fault for not taking better care of myself.
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