trying to find a happy medium

is it this way with everyone?
there seems to be a hundred and one sayings - but right now "it never rains til it pours" seems appropriate.

for a lot of last year, i felt like i was in go slow mode. there was a bit to do - kickboxing, yoga, work and friends. but i didnt feel like my life was full - like i really had a good full life.
it didnt really bug me too much. i was still happy. i just seemed to have a bit more free time than some of my friends. now i understand that most of that was my making too.

after i went to fiji in october, things really changed a lot.
i started travelling to melbourne for work and i got into diving. around christmas time, i was spending most of my weekends out of town and then after new year, i had a bit of a disagreement with my trainer and we broke up.
i thought that this would mean that i had a bit more time to myself - not as many sessions at the gym each week, that sort of thing. but as it turns out, i was wrong.

this year i cant seem to find a minute to myself!
i guess i wanted it to be this way - i wanted to be busy and not sitting around the house wondering what to do next. and now i have that - i'm thinking of another saying "the grass is always greener on the other side"

when i worked for vodafone, there was quite a lot of corporate speak about trying to educate people about a work-life balance. at that time, i thought it was bollocks and was corporate code for working us too hard and then trying to make sure we took responsibility for the repercussions in our own lives. now i am not so sure that it was all bollocks.

i definitely think that i need to take responsibility for my calendar. and for saying no to some of the trips that work might want me to do. and to my friends who invite me out. after all - its ok to say no sometimes.

the crux of it is - i did get a cold after fiji. and possibly tonsilitis.
and its my own fault for not taking better care of myself.

thoughts of the day

1. Save the whales. Collect the whole set.

2. A day without sunshine is like......night.

3. On the other hand, you have different fingers.

4. Remember, half the people you know are below average.

5. He who laughs last thinks slowest.

6. Depression is merely anger without enthusiasm.

7. Support bacteria. They're the only culture some people have.

8. A clear conscience is usually the sign of a bad memory.

9. How many of you believe in psycho kinesics?...Raise my hand.

10. OK...so what's the speed of dark?

11. When everything is coming your way, you're in the wrong lane.

12. Everyone has a photographic memory. Some just don't have film.

13. How much deeper would the ocean be without sponges?

14. What happens if you get scared half to death twice?

15. I couldn't repair your brakes, so I made your horn louder.

16. Why do psychics have to ask you for your name?

17. Inside every older person is a younger person wondering what happened.

18. Just remember --- if the world didn't suck, we would all fall off.

19. Light travels faster than sound. That is why some people appear bright until you hear them speak.

20. Life isn't like a box of chocolates. It's more like a jar of jalapenos. What you do today might burn your ass tomorrow.

the world is a book and those who do not travel read only one page -- st. augustine

i've just come back from holiday and i already need to take another.
i got home from fiji on sunday (monday was also a public holiday thanks to easter) and today is my first day of work.

its not only going back to work that gets me down.
its the difference in weather between new zealand and fiji. and its only the end of summer/beginning of autumn.

fiji was 32-34 with 29 degree water.

its 14 degrees in auckland at the moment!

oh well ... i saw a turtle or two. and a shark.


octopus resort, yasawa islands - march 2007

but i wouldnt be surprised if i catch a cold!